As we wrap up 2019 and the last decade and take inventory of memories smiles and experiences, my heart and mind are filled with bursting emotions and thoughts.
I am absolutely mind blown at how a decade flew by in a blink. In 2010, I was still focusing on studying, hall life and friends. In 2011, I graduated from NUS and joined the workforce as a private banker. In 2013, I left and started out on my own. In 2017, I married the love of my life. In 2019, I gave birth to a baby boy. Fast forward 10 years, here I am today.
Maybe 2019 seemed like the year I figured it all out but this beautifully and perfectly summarises my takeaway for the year:
“What we love determines what we seek. What we seek determines what we think and do. What we think and do determines who we are— and who we will become”
2019 was big. We (as a team) took on fresh challenges, expanded our capabilities, learned a lot, adapted, grew, smashed targets and the best of all, grew as a family. It’s rarely straight forward running a business and wearing so many hats at once, plus an added role of being a mom, but building something worthwhile never is. Reflecting back made me realise how far I’ve come and how grateful I am to everyone who’s been there along the way.
With the birth of baby Noah, my priorities had immediately shifted to being the best mom I possibly can for him. Almost nothing else seemed to matter as much, but somehow, I found that extra oomph and energy in me to conquer more than just motherhood (professionally and as a person). People often ask me how I survive on so little sleep, or accomplish so much with so little time. I don’t know the answer to that question too.
Motherhood has changed me in an indescribable way. I shapeshifted into a fighter, a nurturer, a woman so fiercely wanting to protect the human I loved most, a woman so fiercely chasing after her dreams and visions. It made me confront myself, my shortcomings and it made me rise over any difficulty or setbacks. Somehow, I felt like I grew extra strength and was armed with additional weapons and armour. I thought motherhood would takeaway something away from me, but it gave me so much more.
2019 was a year of growth and gratitude. Every morning, I wake up to a smiling baby and I am so thankful I get to be a momma to Noah. I am grateful for the new love and joy. I am grateful for health and for all the beautiful memories. I wake up next to my two boys, and I feel ever so complete.
Over the decade, I learnt that happiness was so much more than my job or my degree or being in love. Happiness was in giving and expecting nothing in return. Happiness is the one true joy in knowing that God is good and He will not fail. Stealing what Natalie Grant said, “God is the very definition of good. From the mountains (heights) to the valleys (lows), and the valleys to the mountains – He is constant. His faithfulness has been my shield and rampart.”
For those of you guys still reading this space, thank you for always coming back. I will be sharing my hopes and dreams for 2020 in the next post!